fake smiles

another fake smile appears on my face,

i know you see right through me.

is this my cue to laugh?
is this my cue to tell you im happy?

becuase im not.

i dont want to pretend anymore.

this is not the real me.

the real me doesnt know how to laugh anymore,

she doesnt know how to smile,

she doesnt understand happiness.

dont judge me.

please just dont judge me.