im not sure if i can be bothered with my blog anymore.
maybe ill be back in a little while.
i think my thoughts are best left secret. goodbye.

for once in my life im telling the truth.

i know the truth,
and i lied to him,
to cover some bitches ass,
i dont even know why,
i hate her with every bone in my body,
he deserves to know the truth,
he deserves better.
i sacrificed everything for someone i hate,
i serously hurt one of my closest friends,
someone who would never hurt me,
i feel so bad.
i just didnt want anyone to get hurt.
i didnt want him to get hurt.
but you were right,
i wouldnt have cared if you got hurt,
you could almost go as far as to say...
that maybe, i would enjoy it,
im going to tell him the truth,
n0t because i want to hurt you,
but because im sick of lying.

has had a good but eventful and very emotional weekend.
these are definately the people i want to spend the rest of my life with.

pumped for the weekend. :D
life is good.

i told you she hadnt changed,
she will never change. ever.

i want to be numb all over.
i want to stop hurting.

chip rolls, black nail polish and golden orchid ftw.

you have no idea how sorry i really am baby.

i love you, i wish i never met him.

i love you so fucking much and i had a lovely weekend.

i honestly cant believe i was that fucking drunk.
its really wierd trying to remember what happend.
i honestly have no clue.

i wish that you could just be civil towards me.

cara

when she walks, she never looks back,
like she knows exactly where shes going
and everyone eles is just following.

im glad its changed.

apparently this is the person i am.
"Just really small minded and pretty
much just all talk, she isn't half the
person people think she really is."
oh yeah, defs thanks for that.
if she wants me to punch her i can.