i guess sometimes some people make it through,
and some just fall through the cracks and get lost in the hurry.

bad day...

just remember, everyone deals with things differently..
some get angry and turn on the ones they love,
some get angry and blame themselves,
some become over sensitive and get hurt easily,
some put on a mask every day and are often the happiest people we know,
some go out looking for different ways to escape their situation,
some of them look for it in razor blades,
some poison their bodys with alcohol and drugs,
and some just want to be loved, but instead of finding real love
they allow there bodies to be abused in a desperate attempt to feel wanted.
i know someone different for every single one of them.
i wish i could help them, i wish they belived me when i said that
i loved them and that im allways here to help. trust me. i am. i know how you feel.

Everybody assumes that im so happy,
that nothing is wrong with me.
But nobody ever knows that i constantly feel like
everything is falling apart, and my insides are numb.

when i hear your name
i get an overwealming rush of feelings.
you bring tears to my eyes.
and create scars on my skin.

yes darling, but you have real boys chasing you.

its true, i allways hurt you, fail you. im never good enough.

is discussing the oh my god the people i love could die at any moment moment.

this is so true. i hated the day i realised this.

im jealous of the love you have,

hes so nice, your so pretty,

and you just seem happy when your together.
i wish i was as lucky as you.

dad keeps asking me about amelia.
he says hes worried about her.
we all know hes seen the scars.
he wants me to tell him why.
he says that he would do the same for me.
little do they know, im in the same place as her.
they are just too distracted,
too blind to notice my scars.

had a good weekend :)

is at home, finally...

high-low.
low: i went out to drink away the shit that happend today,
i came home with more shit on my mind and i still havent forgotten today.
high: the taxi driver gave us a deck cause some one left it in the taxi.

i hate school.
teachers stress me out.
and then i feel like dying.
the end.

i agree baby,

i too dont want to be in reality,

i want to forget it all.

im sick of this pain.

to be honest im kind of sick of being insulted, so if you could just stop that would be great. so yeah, thanks.

i wish these thoughts didnt still flood my mind late at night.

i guess things never really change for good.

its too late now,

ive thrown every reall chance away,

and for just a couple of stupid nights.

i hate the way i escape the truth,

cause the truth is that now im

all alone, unloved and terrified of what ill do next.

happy bithday emm bours.

i enjoyed our family dinner.

i love your family, may i please join?

i read the letter. ill miss you.

i dont know if your still going to talk to me or not.

but i really do wish you luck with the baby.

i hope life improves for you.

bye brooke.

forever les sales putes.

im just going to listen to this song on repeat and cry myself to sleep.

i dont know why,
but i can remember everything
you ever said to me.
and i believe what you said,
i dont know what it was,
but you sounded like you ment it.
ill never forget you,
even though you probably
dont even remember me.

i had to change my url :(

i hate people.

fun night, i love these people, and judes house was amazing.

i dont know why im still friends with you.
people are allways asking me.
after all the shit you've done to me.
after everything you've put me through.
all the pain you've caused me.
i still let you treat me like shit.
i still let you upset me.
why?

i really wish we got to see beth last night :(

we are going to watch the breakfastclub

together along with some more amazing movies.

sounds prety good to me ;)

youre going away for 8 whole weeks tomorrow.
i am going to miss you guys like hell.
i hope you have an amazing time.
have fun on marshmead my lovelys.

i cant believe brooke gave issy my male reproductive systems presentation.
we have the same fucking teacher. now we are both in shit for copying.
ok so lets just tell the truth. maybe brooke should think of doing that next time.
way to fuck up my rep with the teachers at mlc even more brooke. thanks.

even the wind is angry tonight.

i am going to miss her so much. 8 weeks without my baby abby :O

HI ISSY!

you know that sinking feeling you get in your stomach

when someone says something that you really didnt

want to hear? and then it just wont go away?

is she angry at me? what did i do wrong now? im sorry baby...?

i never really realised how much i enjoy watching people skate <3

had the best night. but shhh. dont tell anyone he has a gf. :I

Dear Brooke Kingsley,
to be honest im not sure if im actually hurt by what you did. or if i just feel sorry for you, i cant
believe you are that low. i never hated you, i never bitched about you, i never did anything to
hurt you. UNTILL. you started to purposefully hurt us. why would you even do that? what did
i ever do to you? im not a coward and i am definately not affraid of you. i may not be able to
punch you in the face but i hope it keeps you up at night that you caused some of these scars
oh and i wasnt talking to you because i was in fucking woop woop and had no internet.
i would never be friends with some backstabbing bitch like you, i cant believe you made that
website about issy. how could you do that to someone? even if issy hadnt told
me about the "formspring incedent" i still would have hated you. i love issy, im not as shallow
as you brooke i probably would have been friends with her even if you wernt. im friends with
everyone at mlc, whether they are "popular" or not. fuck you brooke for even saying that.
you continue to amaze me at how you can just blame it on everyone eles.

"And all of you can stop spamming me with formspring comments, complaining about things
I did to you. I did nothing to you. We were friends and I trusted you. You broke that trust so
now be prepared for the onslaught, skanks

Brooke, you broke that trust the day you started insulting me and my friends on formspring,
purposefully trying to hurt us. What kind of sick twisted person are you? do you find happiness in hurting the people that love you? dont lie to yourself brooke, you know you did shit to us,
you just addmitted it, you wrote shit on our formsprings. oh and im not scared that youll make
a website about me, you dont know much, and it will probably only make people hate you more.
youre a sick twisted bitch brooke, now i understand why so many people dont like you.

is in mildura.
dying of bordem.
im actualy going insane.
and i hope to get back to society soon.
miss and love you all <3