x x x

you have no idea how much that means to me brooke.

thank you for wanting better for me.

i love you too. alot.

what you do, i do.
you know what hurts you, hurts me.
ill never forget the look in your eyes that night.
it will haunt me forever.
i miss being little gilrs together.

dear y,
you are upsetting me. i dont know who you were talking about. but. but. i dont know. please not be me.
do you not want to meet me? are we different? am i not popular? whats going on.. :( why didnt issy talk to me?
you said she had reasons... what were they? and why do they not matter now?
why is she making me friendship muffins? do you guys not like me? mm.
x

i am in love with this topp.

jeepers creepers.

shhh dont tell zoe but shes not getting it back...

reputation

first day was ok. thank god.

we already have a rep. fail.

maybe smoking in the bathroom

on the first day wasnt such a good

idea... ftw i didnt start it i swear!

everyone already thought i

was a slut. i guess its true-ishh... :I

haha sigh thats me "the smoking

slut that hangs out at the skate park"

dont you just love reputations?

first day at mlc tomorrow.
i am so lost.
and i dont know who to hang out with.
or where to go.
or.
i just dont know.
i am so scared.

want to know the truth?

after all this time, it still affects me.

it doesnt evern hurt anymore...

its been a while my red and silver bracelets.
i would say welcome back but youre not really welcome.

what an eventful night...
georgia drank half a bottle of vodka
on the way to camberwell she abuses the taxi driver...
poor harry or as she called him "paddi"
we get to camberwell and meet friends
georgia pisses on herself ha
and then she passed out and munted all over me
we then had to drag her across the ground as we almost
get hit by one of those car things that sweep the streets.
taylah and ella freak out and go
me and almelia some how get her into a trolley
by this stage all of us are covered in georgias stomach contense
we go into some random street so we dont get arested
i call libby, she tells me to fuck off, thanks for lying
when you said you would allways come get me if i was in trouble
anyway thank god i have good friends like alice.
she calls a taxi for us, the taxi driver helps us lift
the almost dead georgia in and and out of the car. alice meets us in the street and we carry georgia inside her parents hear us and we have to tell them whats happening georgia basically just sleeps and sleeps and sleeps. i stay us with alice, we watch the sunrise. alices parents agree not to tell, thank god. we make us some radiculous story, the rents buy it, but are angry georgia goes home and remembers nothing at all! we are all increadiby hung over. and yer that was my night. funn... :I haha i have some really hot photos of our adventure

why do i allways do this?

why do i allways see someone new?

hey friends, sorry i havent posted in a while...
ive been really busy. so much to do.
ill start posting again now. xx

i love you rah rah seahorse,
xx stephie starfish.

i wish you would just open your eyes and see that she really likes you,

and she is so right for you. please i wish you wernt so blind. its killing her.

OMG BROOKES HOME!

i miss you. alot.

i want more piercings,
i have an urge to stick pieces of metal through my flesh.
i want to pierce my lip.
like now... but i cant.
but soon.
i wonder if amelia and steph ever ordered more needles....

i dont think ive ever cut this deep.
the pain so much worse inside.
the pain of cutting felt like nothing,
so numb.

god he pisses me off sometimes.

maybe ill take your sugestion steph.

i will be an actuall slut.

not just flirt with everyone but actually have sex with everyone.

first on my list,

connor murphy.

not my desision his.

he asked to be on my list.

ha. im actually going to go write a list now.

you

i miss the people that just used to hold me when i felt like this.
i want you back.
i want the old you's back.
you know who you are.
i need you now more than ever.
cause right now im weaker than ever.
and moving though the hardest time of my life.
this fight, this fight with my self...
its never been worse.
i feel like im not in controll anymore.
help me please.
just hold me.

some ridiculous mastepiece.

i totally understand.

i dont want to bring you back down...

so eventually when you come back

ill move up to you

ill be happy

and i wont need those things either.

guys can change things in just a second.

im glad youre happy brooke.

good luck :)

i just want some one to hold me as i cry
not talk, just cry.
i do not believe in god,
but i believe in the power of his people.

i doubt it.

its happend.

and oh god i want more.

you make me happy.

i want this to be a relationship.

you know i want to feel needed by you.

please.

you know who.

oh god
i promised myself i wouldnt fall for the best friend.
its too late now.
its done.
ive made up my mind.
i really like him.

Look, if you had one shot, or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted - One moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip?

ive never had regrets.
not one. untill last night.
what a fucking whore.
he means nothing to me.
thats why i care so much.

im sorry i made that promise emmy...
only hours later i broke it.
i can never forgive myself for that.
ill never let you know,
ill never ever show you the bleeding...
cause now i know you definantly cant take it.
i love you so much.
i want you to be my baby girl again....

remember when we were innocent...

Don't look at me

Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, i ts hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone left the puzzle undone
That's the way it is

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down
Don't you bring me down today...

No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what they say
(no matter what they say)
When the sun is shining through
Then the clouds won't stay

And everywhere we go
(everywhere we go)
The sun won't always shine
(sun won't always shine)
But tomorrow will find a way
All the other times

'cause we are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down, oh no
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down
Don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today

meds are just a socially acceptable way of escaping.
no different to drugs
no different to smoking
no different to drinkning
no different to cutting.

i am not affraid to keep on living

i am not affraid to walk this world alone

ive missed you so much <3

fucking excited for tomorrow!

yyeeeaaahss

emmy bours and connor stanely!!!

ive missed you so fucking much!!

gahhhh

love everywhere.