brakedown for nothing.

she is distraught, her mind spins in circles and so does the room. nothing out of the ordinary has happend but maybe thats the problem. nothing is working for her, just the tiny things. she cant find the camera cord, shes lost her friends dress and the computer is braking, it wont charge. shes just i bit pissed off and tired. she needs a ciggerette to calm her down, she wants to drink herself stupid to numb the pain, to watch teh blood come out, but she cant cause her parents are home. she starts to cry screaming at the top of her lungs. her body tenses but collapses at the same time. she throws herself onto the bed. slamming her hands down on the keybored. angry and frustrated. her eyes are sore and tired, blood shot from teh crying, her eyes bleed mascara down her face. she falls off the bed onto the floor. she wraps herself tightly in the duna, covering her face asamed to be herself. she doesnt even have a reason to feel this way, its just so stupid and pointless. thats what makes it worse. her head gets hot and she feels like throwing up. she has nothing to throw up; she hasnt eaten in hours. she just lays shaking in a messy heap, crying, wanting it to end, to not have to worry about fucking computer cords and friends dresses that are stolen or something. she wants to fly away.