she tried so hard

she tried so hard

she tried so hard not to give in

give in to those voices

she told herself over and over

you dont need the relief

you can deal with it other ways

you dont need to bleed

but relief was all she needed

and that was the only way she knew how.

and once again she gave in

she looked at the blade

im a fuck up she told herself

thats all ill ever be.

she sat there shakng

body curled up tight into a ball.

she couldnt controll the tears.

she had given in again

in that moment hope faded away,

nothing was left but the pain.