belief

i saw your post about you not being a boom leader anymore.
i saw the photos.
and as a stared
i saw things
i remembered the feelings

i remembered when i saw him

i remembered the day i was saved
i longed to be free again
knowing that god is the only way
i cried
also knowing that i will never turn back to him
because..
ive had a lot of time to think
ive heard alot of different opinions on god
and now i believe them all
i believe he is made up and fake
but i also believe he is real
i believe that once upon a time he touched me
he set me free
but now even if he gives second chances
i dont let myself have second chances,
like you hannah
this is the end of my boom experience.

i hope that yours last longer than mine

i hope that you are free forever

ill be missing you as i burn in hell.