get me out of here!

im sorry that i havent posted in a copple of days, i have just been realy shit.i am pushing away the ones i love, the ones that can help.or maybe they cant help. all the ppl i ask they only answer they can give me is god. but i dont want god. i want help, i want love and i want a different answer.
dont tell me to just distract myself becuase thats impossible, i think about it 24, 7. the only answer i can think of is death.
but in the realy worls thats not a very good desision.
i dont want to hurt the ppl around me, i dont want them to be lost like me.i just need to get away from this.

xx