implossible mind puzzle

i am so fucking hurt. so pissed off.
i just got abused by fucking netball coaches.
ive been on that team almost 7 yrs.
and they tell me im not comitted.
try to fucking kick me off the team.

i sent tessa a message when i got home.
ill tell you when she replies.

What the fuck Tess?? I thought you were my friend? I thought my team were my friends. Friends don’t try to fucking kick you off the team or whatever. Netball isn’t the only thing I’ve missed, I’ve missed about half a term of school and I’ve missed most of my gym too. I can’t fucking help that I’m really sick and it’s not Amelia’s fault her back is al fucked up. Didn’t you miss like a whole term of netball cause of injuries??? Did they try to kick you off your fucking team!? I doubt it. And what about Alice that was like the first game she’s played, first training? Huh? Is she committed to the team coz it looks more like she’s committed to rowing. And don’t you dare tell me off for going to ‘marshmead’. Every single fucking time I see you I remind you that I’m going and that we will have to get another player. And when I’m sick or can’t play I always try to txt you as soon as I can but I can only txt you so early if I wake up and feel I can’t get out of bed. I have ALWAYS been committed to netball, last yr too. I tried so hard last yr even when I felt all the mums were picking on me, I never ever got one of those stupid award things even when I was playing well. Never. I’ve always done my best. I’ve been on this fucking team for yrs. and every week I tried my best and I was committed. I am so hurt that you guys just told me I wasn’t committed.

Thanks for nothing.

I’ll see you at training.